Monthly Archives: February 2011

backchat and posession

Today, and maybe for a few days now Ive allowed backchat within my mind regarding a person in my world. I feared that I pissed this person off, became insecure and acted on the insecurity by tiptoeing around so to … Continue reading

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School Decisions

An opportunity has opened up for me to go to university. Id like to go next September. I always expected that I would go to school for fine art, everyone always told me to go for art and seem disappointed … Continue reading

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self manipulation

I realised that i made myself inferior to the point of exposing myself/expressing myself to not actually face it and take responsibility for me. I made expressing myself/exposing myself more than it was, and believed i was facing it though … Continue reading

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distracting myself

I had an interesting conversation with X the other day. We were speaking about distractions and making the environment a suitable enough to start writing because we experienced some resistances. He said: do you prepare your workspace before you draw/paint? … Continue reading

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Awareness in SF

So I am continuing with the thought construct I started yesterday. I always applied self forgiveness as: I forgive myself I have accepted and allowed myself, i noticed that In the examples provided the forgiveness is stated: I forgive myself … Continue reading

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Fear Expressing

Feb 11th I set up the syndication of my blog posts with facebook. No more hiding. I see that i separated myself from the people in my world. I defined the relationship where I would only allow myself to experience stability and peace … Continue reading

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Ending the Relationship…

So in the past couple of weeks I have experienced a fear of loss and jealousy. I had been hiding from this point of the fear of losing the external relationship (projection of the relationship within me onto my partner) … Continue reading

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